the last and final entry for blogfest

This was an interesting sentence I found off Vincent's blog. It reads "I know that God won't let bad things happen to me". I believe that what Vincent says rings true, though sometimes, when things don't go the way we want them to, we tend to let our minds believe that God is the one who doesn't want us to have or achieve something.

For me, it was when I wasn't able to get into the university I wanted, dislocated my toe so close to my dance exam, had friends who were busy dancing their lives away and performing, while I had to watch from the sidelines and enter a second rated university which I'd never thought of entering. I had thought that God was unfair, because others who had the same grades that I had, managed to get into the universities. I was distraught when the rejection letter came, and I believed that God didn't want me to be happy and let me get in to be with my friends. The same thought occurred to me when I kept going to watch my friends perform at the UCC (NUS's University Cultural Centre). I would arrive home close to tears and questioning WHY God had dumped me in a second rated university that I hadn't chose.

But it occurred to me that maybe, just maybe I wouldn't have been able to get the same grades that I am getting now. If I had gone to the university of my choice, I may have had a major breakdown because of the stress and unending competition to be the best. I had managed to beat my friends during the exams, and was rather happy about that.

So I guess, it really is true that God won't let anything bad or unfortunate happen to us. I guess we have to see His plan for us, the bigger picture that we fail to see as we focus on our day-to-day wants, in order to know that the choices He makes for us are not detrimental to us, but to help us along.

final entry

Sorry to Sarah for not being able to post any earlier!!! Was having a tebulent time in school this past week. It's crazy to the bone. I hope these entries will come in time for the judging!!!!



I would say my relationship with God has been one with much ups and downs, somewhat like a rollercoaster ride.

Let me share with you, readers, my experience during on of the down sides. I know that there was a point in my life where I felt that going to church on Saturdays and singing for mass wasn't what I had envisioned being in a church was. At that time, I had started making friends with people from other Christian denominations, mainly Methodists. After hanging out with them for awhile, I began to realise that I wanted the same kind of bond which the youth had in their church. I felt that the youth over at Risen Christ weren't as close as we possibly could, as we were divided into our catechism classes and church ministries. But for the Methodists, or so I was told last time, they had cell groups, bible study and other activities to bond the youth together constantly, so that they would become one body, instead of separate cliques.

After I had heard about all these, I was greatly unsatisfied, and started comparing the youth in Risen Christ to that of my friends' church. I was extremely tempted to stop going to a Catholic church and start going to a Methodist one, to, well, enjoy wouldn't be the word, but to feel closer to God. However, I didn't manage to do so, because I prayed very hard to God, and asked Him to help me, and guide me through the dilemma. His sign was shown to me the following week, where I was asked to play the organ during mass for the choir. I looked at that request as the saving grace, because if not, I don't think I would have still be in Risen Christ after confirmation.

This, my dear readers, was the turning point where my relationship with God started to become stronger. I can tell you all straight away, that my relationship with God is now very firm and deeply rooted in my heart. Two years from now, I can see myself still serving in one of the church's ministries, and being a faithful follower of God.

As Saint Augustine said, "He who sings prays twice", and I shall continue to sing for God for a long time to come =))

*image taken from google images

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"Are you guilty of indulging in earthly possessions or splurging yourself with materialism? Are you holding any grudges? Do you have worries you cannot surrender?"
- Stella



If someone were to ask me if I'm guilty of indulging in earthly possessions and what not, then my answer would be YES. I mean, I know it's wrong and stuff, but it's during the Great Singapore Sale, where practically everything's a steal, and besides, the GST hike starts today, so....I know it's still wrong to keep wanting more stuff, but I guess spending money shopping retail therapy is another outlet for me to relieve stress.



If you were to ask me if I'm holding grudges, then the answer would be YES. I am one person who has a tendency to bear grudges against people who have pissed me off, stepped all over me and annoyed me to no end. Not only do I bear a grudge against that person, I sometimes go out of my way to make sure that he or she sufferes the same shit things which he or she has done to me. In other words, I'm rather vindictive.



If anyone were to ask me if I have worries that I can't surrender, the answer would also be a resounding YES. I believe many people have some worries which, no matter how hard they try, can't seem to give up. It's as if they get some sadistic pleasure in torturing themselves with worrying. For me, worrying is like second nature. I tend to worry about a lot of things, and sometimes, these worries extend to the future.

"Make every effort to enter through the narrow door, because many, I tell you, will try to enter and will not be able to"

Isn't it worrying? After you read a passage, analyse it, and then see how it plays a part in your own life? Like Stella said, I highly doubt I'd be able to go in through the narrow door, because of all the baggage I'm carrying.

I think this is my wake up call to start living a better Christian life, by changing the way I behave and react to certain problems, to stop being taken in by worldly wants, and to start living according to the way God wants us to live our lives, so that we can, and are able to get through the narrow door without any problems.

*images are taken from google images =))